Don't know if anyone is actually going to read this but here goes. I haven't blogged in quite awhile-since July of last year, actually. What a difference a year can make! Oh I know, I'm still living in the same place doing the same work and serving in the same capacity at the same Church. But from there on it gets a bit different. I've been struggling with a personal difficulty for almost 4 years now and it's beginnning to wear on me and my wife. It seems that everything is looking up one day then down the next. It's not that quick a change of course, but it seems so. Just when I think there is going to be some reconciliation another bomb seems to drop. There was a time I believed God was calling me into some kind of ministry but now I'm not sure. I'm nearly to the point now where I believe it's time to leave my beloved Church family and move on the somewhere else. The problem is, I don't know where. In some ways I feel as if it is simply Satan who is seeing what could happen here and wants me out but it's hard to tell. Wish I could say more because I realize this is all pretty vague but that's about the extent of what I can reveal without getting too specific and breaking confidence etc.

Anyhow, I hope to take some time off this summer with my wife and just get away for a bit. That should help. Also, it's only a couple of weeks till the big conference in Louisville and I know that will be a great blessing too.

That's about it for now. I'll try to get back here soon and also to try to be more positive.

Till then, keep looking up.

What a great Sunday yesterday was! Summer schedule and all it was great to be in God's house with His people. Twice. Bible class is a bit different for the summer but a great study just the same. We are watching a series by RC Sproul with much discussion, of course. Then, last nite kicked off the summer evening service rotation at Murillo. I believe next week is at Ft William Baptist. Pastor Carson spoke on the greatest verse. John 3:16, no surprise, but he broke it into 11 parts-11 great parts and it was very challenging. I thought I would enjoy the time away from teaching for the summer, and I guess I do to a point, but I find that I miss the classroom activity too.

Had a great summer so far too. The last time I was on here, I was looking forward to being in Calgary to visit family and attend a wedding. Seems like yesterday, but it's already been almost 2 months. As a matter of fact, there was a brutal snow storm the day we left. It was actually a cold week, but we had a really great time. The wedding was a real spiritual blessing and we got to visit with some friends that we haven't visited with in a long time. The irony is, they only live a few miles from our house in the same township as we do. Funny how that happens.

That's about all for now. Have to get back to work here.

Til later, keep looking up. Barry

Well, here I am back to the old grind. Managed to get away to Minneapolis for a weekend with Kathy and it was a great time. It just re-inforces how important it is to spend some quality time with each other every now and then. Sunday was kind of bitter sweet, however. We went to a church in the area where a preacher we knew was filling the pulpit only to find he's no longer there. We didn't get a whole lot of details, nor did we want any, just that he 'slipped and fell'. Nothing too radical, I understand, just enough to take him out of the pulpit. I'm reminded, at times like this, of a dear friend who suddenly left his wife for another woman many years ago. I was shocked to say the least because he had always been such an outstanding Christian example. I remember thinking at the time how much of that may have been my fault because I had failed to uphold him in prayer while he worked out of town all week. The truth is, I hadn't thought he needed it! What a mistake that is. We are responsible to hold up our brothers and sisters in prayer and, when you think of it, the more effective or high profile they are, the more they need to be prayed for.

So pray for a brother or sister today. More than one if you like.

Till next time, keep looking up. B.

Well, it's been awhile but I'm going to try to be on here a bit more often, even if it's just for a line or two. Went to the Dorion Bible Camp dinner last night and, as usual, it was a great time. Good food, good fellowship, but best of all, a really challanging message from the speaker. What he said really hit home! In brief, Christians need to be so full of joy from God's Word and Jesus that it overflows to those around us. Whether we're working at Bible camp or where ever, if we are not right with God ourselves and full of joy we won't impact anyone for Christ, we will only disallusion those around us. Good words for any Christian. We can never be too full of the Holy Spirit. We can never study too much of God's Word.

It has been so busy around here, at work for both myself and Kathy that we hardly have any spare time so we are planning a weekend in Minneapolis right after Easter, Lord willing. It will be great to sleep in a bit (6 am would be sleeping in for us) and just to do as we please with no schedule of any kind.

Then, of course, there's a May wedding in Calgary that we're very much looking forward to as well. Hope to get a bit more R&R at that time too.

That's about all I have time for now. Til later, keep looking up. 

Barry 

Well, I'm feeling kind of 'blah' today. Don't know why really. Maybe just because I have so much to do in the next few weeks and not sure where I'll find the time. Also, my desktop kinda crashed on me here at work. Fortunately, I have the laptop for backup. Hope everyone out there had a great Christmas. Mine was kind of quiet. Shannon, my youngest daughter, is home and has been home since Dec 15 so that's real nice. Spent some quality time with my wife in a different kind of way. She was delivering bread for the local bakery over the holidays but because she sprained her ankle was having a tough time driving the van so I did the driving for her since I was off for Christmas and New years anyhow. It turned out to be a fun time and a kind of unique way to spend some time together. God truly does work in mysterious ways sometimes. Gotta go for now, but keep looking up and I'll be back later, Lord willing.

Barry